And now that it’s time to turn in my case study project, this is me.
Needless to say, there is no motivational Monday post today since the only thing I’m “motivated” to do is finish up this case study before it’s due this week. Eeek! 85 pages down… About 20 more to go. Agghhhhhhhhh!
Before surgery, I used to love food and look forward to eating all kinds of yummy things. I had pizza all the time and yummy fast food. I would eat sweets often and in great volume. I would eat when I thought I was “hungry” which I now know was head hunger. I would eat when I was stressed, happy, bored, or for celebrating something. My whole life revolved around going out to dinner as a social setting and I could easily eat an entire meal and go for desserts.
But now my outlook on food is completely different. I know that this relationship with food is going to keep changing until I find the right niche to fit it in. But for now, I hate food. After gastric bypass you are still revolving your life around food. You are constantly planning for your meals whether you are going out, going to work, staying in, anything. We have to eat on a schedule… at least your surgeon and nutritionist tell you to do so… every 3-4 hours. And your number one focus is protein. Protein, protein, protein. I’m sick of protein. Lol.
Food doesn’t sit the same as it used to in your new belly. And it changes from day to day… heck, even meal to meal. All the foods that brought you comfort before are no longer allowed and you have to find comfort in other things. When you finally find something you can eat (that doesn’t get you sick), you can only have a few bites of it. I don’t know about you, but my mind still hasn’t caught up and it loves the taste so it wants more… then comes horrible chest pains with a mixture of dry heaving and the foamies for an hour to 90 minutes. Fun stuff.
I didn’t know how this would work before surgery and wish I did. Does that mean I’d change my mind about having the surgery??? Heck NO! I would still do it in a heartbeat. But I think being more mentally prepared would make the transition much easier. This is a learning process which means lots of trial and error. I’m scared to try new things but I know that if I don’t want to drink protein shakes as all my meals for the rest of my life, I need to start taking more chances. I’m going to do it slowly (and mostly try new things at home – in case I get sick). But it is something everyone should be aware of pre-op.
I’ve actually just found two bloggers posts I follow that express these same kind of emotions. Here they are for a good read. 🙂
I am really happy today. Don’t know why but thought I’d share! 🙂
I just feel like things are going great in my life. School will be over soon (less than a month til graduation), AMEN! Weight loss is going pretty darn good. I was cleared to exercise so it’s going to keep going great, I just know it. The weather is starting to warm up a little, though I cannot wait for mid to high 70’s or low 80’s. I’m a summer girl and can’t wait to break out the shorts and flip-flops.
I have great family, great friends, and amazing support system (online and off). I feel like cranking up some music and singing my heart out… though that might make people’s ears bleed. Lol.
Today I went for my 7 week check-up with my surgeon. He told me that I was losing at a great pace (though I feel it’s pretty slow) and that I am officially medically cleared to do any type of physical activity my heart desires for exercise. Woohoo. I’m excited for this but at the same time, nervous. I am nervous to start running again because I’ve spent my whole life hating it. It’s never been easy for me and I’m afraid I’m going to feel the same way. I know it’s all mental but how do you get past that? If you know anything that helps psych you out of disliking an activity, please let me know in the comments area!
So next week I plan on starting C25K and One Hundred Push Ups exercise routines. Gotta start getting ready for the 5k season… and an impending zombie apocalypse. Hey, you never know!
Another thing I talked to my surgeon about, which is kind of gross… If you don’t want to hear about bodily smells stop reading now. Ok… so I warned you. Lol. I asked my surgeon if it’s normal to have stronger smelling sweat and pee post op. I’ve been noticing that it’s stronger than normal. At first I thought I was just dehydrated and that can make it like that. But then it has been happening for a week or two now. Gross, I know. But my surgeon said that all of the vitamins and medications I’m on are introducing a lot more chemicals into my body than normal. This could be the cause of the smells. I was like great, this is going to smell funky for the rest of my life then since I have to take these vitamins forever… and he said NO! After a few months, I can go to taking Centrum One A Day vitamins (but twice a day). I am so happy to hear that for both the smell purposes and to save money because they are much cheaper. At my next appointment in June, I’m going to see if I can switch then.
This week has been an exciting and great week for me. First off, my best friend Sarah K. had a beautiful baby girl on Saturday, April 20. She is just so beautiful and sweet and perfect. I am so happy for Sarah and her husband Rob. They deserve all the happiness in the world!
Second good thing is my amazing weight loss this week. I lost exactly 4 lbs which is HUGE for me. I was so shocked, especially since I have not had the time to walk as much. I’m thrilled with that number. I hope I can keep it up. I am the lowest I’ve been since right after high school. Probably around 2005 (I graduated in 2004). And I am so close to Onderland, I can smell victory! 🙂 I’m hoping by week 8 I reach it.
And the third thing… Tomorrow I go for my 7 week check up to see if I am cleared to do more exercises than just walk. I’m sure I’ll be ok. I ran a little the other day and was so proud of myself but this spring time allergy season is killing me. I may have to take my runs in doors until the pollen season has died down.
Oh yea! I went to target and bought a zip-up athletic jacket/shirt and it was in a size LARGE!!! Holy cow! Never did I think I’d see that size again in my adult life. Eeeek! I’m so excited.
This Motivational Monday couldn’t have come at a better time. A little while ago, a friend of mine posted this on my Facebook page. I thought it was great and have to share it.
I am still waiting for my 7 week check up (that’s this Thursday) but I have started “running” a little. Yesterday I wanted to visit my friend in the hospital. She had her little baby girl but wanted to get my walk in beforehand.
I did my normal 3.5 mile loop around the neighborhood and park but was trying to finish it a little faster than normal. I added a little “running” using geographical markers (like light posts, stop signs, trees, etc) to do intervals. I put running in quotations because my run is probably someone else’s fast pace walk. But it still counts to me… it’s faster than my walk… so it’s running. Lol. I finished my route in 58 minutes which is like 16 minutes and some change per mile. Much faster than my 22 min mile pace. I did find that I needed my inhaler when I got home. Definitely taking that with me next time.
After I get cleared on Thursday, I plan on adding running more often into my routine. I am planning on training with some friends of mine so that I can do it properly and hopefully learn to love it (I roll my eyes as I say this last part). They ensure me that it is enjoyable and relaxing. Apparently they’ve never been as out of shape as I am or had asthma. Lol. But we shall see. 🙂
Use this as scary motivation. If this doesn’t freak you out, I don’t know what will. So creepy.